Muzak

I think my life should have a soundtrack. There are definitely some very specific songs that I can pick out for moments or eras in my life. Some that come to mind that were kinda much more relevant over a month or so ago are "I'm not that Girl" and "Nothing came out". I'm not so sure what the one that would fit now is...

I've been listening to Pain almost constantly lately. Both albums. Like, every night.
I always liked them, but it's only recently that I realized just how damn great their music is. Like, it's really well orchestrated and stuff.
I'm a geek.

I wish that things had been better this weekend. I made so many mistakes. Today was fun though.

I can't stop thinking of this one time when I was at a friend's house and her bunnies had sex. They wouldn't stop twitching.

I don't like how jealous I get. No, better yet, I hate it. I know it's there, and I can rationalize it away kinda. But only kinda. I'm good at hiding it, but the Id likes to take over sometimes. At least my mind.

I wish that I didn't get nervous at the most inopportune times. I have the worst time coming up with things to say. I always need to think things out and write them down for anything to be at all coherent. I can do shows and stuff no problem, but that's because I already know the music. But when it comes to speaking or anything that requires quick thought I just freeze.

I also wish I could just turn off my mind sometimes.

Some people can. Why not me?

(Great line- "Even superheroes once were losers." thanks, Pain)