Mistakes

I made a mistake today

Everything was going so well...Everyone was happy, things were seemingly looking up.
They had been lately.

But I made everybody wait. I'm tired of making everybody wait. Especially since I know how hard it is to have to wait. And I know who's gonna see this. And I know they don't want me to say sorry anymore,

but guess what?

IT'S MY FUCKING FAULT

If anybody is ever upset, I know it's my fault. And believe me, I feel the damn guilt. I feel guilty all the fucking time (especially when I say fuck half a million times).

I'm gonna regret posting this, and I know it. But I don't care. I want it to be more personal, but it can't be. I'm just so tired of seeing people sad because of me. Because of what I've done.
I don't even care if it's not my fault anymore. I just don't want my friends, or anybody (especially somebody) to be sad. Ever.

I could take the hit for them.