English

How true it is that we, as humans, are doomed to resort to words.

I have almost officially finished my year, and with that I have almost finished AP English.

What a fufilling class that was. I have learned so much from it, but not only about reading and such, but about life. I was not expecting that when I signed up for it last year.

I can't write poetry. And as Frost said, I probably shouldn't learn. It's not a medium that I'm all that great at exploring. I can't make people come close to my words like that.
But I can write prose.
And so I will.

I don't think that people ever seem to understand me, at least not by my actions. Which is terrible, because actions are all that really matter. I agree entirely with what Addie said by this point.
Especially on the topic of love.

You can say "I love you" but that means almost nothing. Unfortunately, it's just about the best thing that one can say. But it means nothing. "Love" is just a word that people who can't love came up with. I don't know how I feel, but I know it's not love. I know that because it's not something that can be described with words. I can say it's some kind of strong emotion that I can't get rid of no matter how hard I try. I can say that I don't want to get rid of it and couldn't even if I wanted to. There are so many things I can say.

But they don't really mean anything.
Not to anyone else.
All I can do is bring you close.

People talk about things like Love, True Love, Unconditional Love, Friend Love, Familial Love, but what the hell matters?
None if it is real, not if you can pin it down with a word or two.
I can't say how I feel about my friends like that. I can't say why I "love" them. It's just something. Something that I feel and do.

And I can't say why I "love" him, or that I do. Because that would be a lie. It's an action, not a word. It's an art that can never be fully expressed. Not in words, not in paintings, not in music.

All we can do is bring you close.

We can act it out all we want. It's an action, a feeling.

But we are doomed to resort to words.